update and thoughts for 1.31.07
As Chris is hanging around our house, it makes me wonder if she is thinking about the people that are basically waiting for her to die or to get better. Not to sound morbid, but in reality her family and friends that are visiting are waiting for one or the other to happen before they head back. That has had to enter her thoughts.
I look at all the cards that we have received and listened to a lot of people who has been touched by Chris and it makes me weep, in the rejoicing for the souls that have been touched and then in knowing that the reason for all of this is that my bride is going through a lot of pain, physically, but more so mentally and psychologically. Listening to Haven say how mad she was last night and how it was all so "stupid" (a word we usually don't let her use, but found it fitting for this occasion) and how she would still be happy if a miracle happened.
Chris' fever hit 106 last night and it has basically stayed between 101.7 and 103.4 for the last couple of days. Although her fever has hit these spikes her ability to stay coherant is still there and she interacts with the girls, family and friends quite a bit. She is still a fighter. We have nurses staying around the clock starting today. If you'd like to visit Chris just give me a call on my cell phone at 483.5728 and I can let you know if it is a good moment to visit. To those that have called and I have yet to return a call, please forgive me as the last couple of days I have worked to get caught up on other matters.
Yesterday Michael Powers and I visited a funeral home so I can get some of those decisions off of my mind. It wasn't a visit I anticipated having in my early 30s, 8 years ago when Chris and I said our vows. But through all of this, I know God is good and I know all of the other religious responses that fits this occasion. I just wished sometimes God would let me peak at the cover of the puzzle box as he puts the pieces together of our lives.
love and blessings,
jc
I look at all the cards that we have received and listened to a lot of people who has been touched by Chris and it makes me weep, in the rejoicing for the souls that have been touched and then in knowing that the reason for all of this is that my bride is going through a lot of pain, physically, but more so mentally and psychologically. Listening to Haven say how mad she was last night and how it was all so "stupid" (a word we usually don't let her use, but found it fitting for this occasion) and how she would still be happy if a miracle happened.
Chris' fever hit 106 last night and it has basically stayed between 101.7 and 103.4 for the last couple of days. Although her fever has hit these spikes her ability to stay coherant is still there and she interacts with the girls, family and friends quite a bit. She is still a fighter. We have nurses staying around the clock starting today. If you'd like to visit Chris just give me a call on my cell phone at 483.5728 and I can let you know if it is a good moment to visit. To those that have called and I have yet to return a call, please forgive me as the last couple of days I have worked to get caught up on other matters.
Yesterday Michael Powers and I visited a funeral home so I can get some of those decisions off of my mind. It wasn't a visit I anticipated having in my early 30s, 8 years ago when Chris and I said our vows. But through all of this, I know God is good and I know all of the other religious responses that fits this occasion. I just wished sometimes God would let me peak at the cover of the puzzle box as he puts the pieces together of our lives.
love and blessings,
jc
posted by hearthevoice.com @ 11:24 AM
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